Hello D.


Here i am again for another post. It's only 17 hours of not texting you yet I felt so miserable. ;') I left with no choice but to endure with this. Serve me right for being overly attached to you all this while. I tried pretend not to care but i keep thinking of you. It's just so weird not texting you. You're my daily routine. It's like im taking a knife put it through my heart. I need you so badly now. I want to text you so badly. Call you so badly. But no. I can't. I cannot keep going back to someone who doesn't need me. Who doesn't love me. It's hard to accept the truth fact but i have to right? It's alright at least i know where i stand now.

Two days ago you make me so happy by you calling me "girlfriend". You don't know how happy i were. I told the whole world about it. Yes, the whole world. It was one of the best night ever. I went to sleep with a very big smile. I didn't want the night to end. Silly.


Tell me how can i not get so attracted or attached to you? You never fail to put the smile on my face. I fallen for you even deeper that night. Until yesterday, you broke this heart again. You stab me with a knife. The knife went through deep inside this heart. I cried so much under the blanket and nobody was there to console me. I keep asking myself why. Why did i let myself into this situation again. Why did i let myself get hurt again. Nah, I don't blame you for all. It was all my fault. I was putting too much high hopes. I went too fast. I should have chill myself. It's just that what is it so hard for you to love me? Knowing the person i am in love with aren't sure about his feelings for me was really sucks. Or even not even sure if he's actually stay because he's pity for me. It's so hurting D. I felt miserable. I felt like I didn't meant anything to you all this while. While one moment you say I am a part of your life another moment you say you love me another moment you say you are not or even ready to love anyone. Why D why? ;') You have always been a place where I share everything with. But now who can i share with? Who else can i cry to? No. I am not giving up on us. Never. I am just taking a step back. Cause i finally realise my stand in your life 😭💔

You don't know how much i wish to text you right now. Share with you one good news. How i would it was all a dream yesterday night. And upon typing this i am listening to the song you ask me to hear. "Fall For You" I literally burst into tears. Why. Why is this happening to me? Why am I not as lucky as other girls? I have always been the unlucky one. The one nobody would love. Right now all I need is your hug. Your sweet nice words. Your forehead kisses sayang. 😭 And i want you to tell me it's alright things would get better for me. ;') I need you Muhammad Dzahir Bin Baharudin! 💔


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Hello D.


Here i am again for another post. It's only 17 hours of not texting you yet I felt so miserable. ;') I left with no choice but to endure with this. Serve me right for being overly attached to you all this while. I tried pretend not to care but i keep thinking of you. It's just so weird not texting you. You're my daily routine. It's like im taking a knife put it through my heart. I need you so badly now. I want to text you so badly. Call you so badly. But no. I can't. I cannot keep going back to someone who doesn't need me. Who doesn't love me. It's hard to accept the truth fact but i have to right? It's alright at least i know where i stand now.

Two days ago you make me so happy by you calling me "girlfriend". You don't know how happy i were. I told the whole world about it. Yes, the whole world. It was one of the best night ever. I went to sleep with a very big smile. I didn't want the night to end. Silly.


Tell me how can i not get so attracted or attached to you? You never fail to put the smile on my face. I fallen for you even deeper that night. Until yesterday, you broke this heart again. You stab me with a knife. The knife went through deep inside this heart. I cried so much under the blanket and nobody was there to console me. I keep asking myself why. Why did i let myself into this situation again. Why did i let myself get hurt again. Nah, I don't blame you for all. It was all my fault. I was putting too much high hopes. I went too fast. I should have chill myself. It's just that what is it so hard for you to love me? Knowing the person i am in love with aren't sure about his feelings for me was really sucks. Or even not even sure if he's actually stay because he's pity for me. It's so hurting D. I felt miserable. I felt like I didn't meant anything to you all this while. While one moment you say I am a part of your life another moment you say you love me another moment you say you are not or even ready to love anyone. Why D why? ;') You have always been a place where I share everything with. But now who can i share with? Who else can i cry to? No. I am not giving up on us. Never. I am just taking a step back. Cause i finally realise my stand in your life 😭💔

You don't know how much i wish to text you right now. Share with you one good news. How i would it was all a dream yesterday night. And upon typing this i am listening to the song you ask me to hear. "Fall For You" I literally burst into tears. Why. Why is this happening to me? Why am I not as lucky as other girls? I have always been the unlucky one. The one nobody would love. Right now all I need is your hug. Your sweet nice words. Your forehead kisses sayang. 😭 And i want you to tell me it's alright things would get better for me. ;') I need you Muhammad Dzahir Bin Baharudin! 💔


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