I am not sure why but you make me start to have interest in you over that. Silly? I know right. Ever since that day i stop looking or even contacting other guys. I know this sound cliche but really no kidding. Yes, they do still text, call, fb message and all but i keep avoiding ignoring. Feeling starts to grow. I start to miss you. Heart still to yearn for you.

Do you remember our first date? It was so improtu. We did plan for a lunch date. Our actual planned was me accompany you during your lunch break. But you ended up ditch work and slept till 12 in the afternoon. But you still insist to bring me out for lunch. I couldn't forget how nervous i was! I was like having butterflies in the stomach. I was like would you still like me after seeing me? LOL. But to my surprise our date went very well. When the moment i saw you upon tapping out all the butterflies in the stomach disappeared! I got so comfortable with how you approach me and talk to me. I was thinking "Oh this guy is not bad" HAHAHA. Eventhough it was just a few hour date i really love it. And i didn't know you were so "gentleman". And what surprise me more when you wanted to take a selfie with me! Why you so cute one? Alahai! :')

Our first argument was the day i asked you who am i to you. Remember? At that point of time i was still contacting with some of my ex date and some guys. You wasn't happy. And i remembered clearly you said "I don't contact my ex nor my ex date" Do you know upon hearing that i felt so bad and quickly deleted each and everyone number? LOL. Like literally deleted them all from my life. You remembered that one night. We were having a conversation about why am i so interested in you? Then we ended with argument. And that was the very first time i cried for you. My heart was so hurt. It's so painful than a slap on my face. When you actually said i was just " A gdfren that you love and care for". I literally broke down. My heart beat so fast. I could feel the break on it. Maybe because at that point of time i already have high expectation. I was hoping for something. 

But you quickly amend thing. You ended up saying "Let's just be like some other couples". The heart was still hurt but i told myself it's alright maybe you have your own reason why. Thing keeps going. Our "relationship" were all well. Till you became so busy with F1 event. But you still makes time for me. Oh have i ever tell you what do i actually mean by you treating me so well? If no, let me tell you now. Whenever we met you would forever ensure i had so much fun. You ensure we spend the day together. You ensure i am happy at the end of every date. You do things nobody else would. And you have never throw any vulgar words to me. You speak so nicely. Sometimes it's just me. You have never "Kau and aku" with me. NEVER. You accepted me the way i am. You have never ever look down on me. Or even bring me down. Now you tell me how can i not fall for you this deep? Where can i find someone like you? You have always make the effort to make things work. With your messages, voice notes and call (sometimes). Just read back the conversation during the F1 event period. Hais. Too sweet la you! :')

You saw that? You actually apologies for not having time for me. ;') But now... where have all the gone to? Where have the sweet D gone to? Why suddenly it like only me making the effort? I even have to begged you for your time. Why D why? Have you lost interest in me? I know you're tired with work. You're stress with work but don't do this to me. Where's the promises you make? Those sweet promises? I just need you to be yourself. I don't want you to changed. It's just so sad seeing you like this. Every single night i go to sleep thinking what's gonna happen to us. Thinking if you still love me like you do or no. So depressing you know! urghh. I am not ready to lose you. I am not ready to give up on something i just started. It's even depressing when i have to save a "relationship" which doesn't even sure. Why? People around us see us as a normal couple. Normal sweet couple. When the actual facts is only you and me knows. Can you please stop changing and give me back my D? My abangmisai? The abangmisai who makes the effort to text me ask me about how's my day, ask me if i am alright, ask me to share things with him. And never fail to tell me how much he loves me.... :"( I miss you so badly. Words couldn't describe love.

You are the happiness i always dream of.

Till we meet again. Xoxo.

I am not sure why but you make me start to have interest in you over that. Silly? I know right. Ever since that day i stop looking or even contacting other guys. I know this sound cliche but really no kidding. Yes, they do still text, call, fb message and all but i keep avoiding ignoring. Feeling starts to grow. I start to miss you. Heart still to yearn for you.

Do you remember our first date? It was so improtu. We did plan for a lunch date. Our actual planned was me accompany you during your lunch break. But you ended up ditch work and slept till 12 in the afternoon. But you still insist to bring me out for lunch. I couldn't forget how nervous i was! I was like having butterflies in the stomach. I was like would you still like me after seeing me? LOL. But to my surprise our date went very well. When the moment i saw you upon tapping out all the butterflies in the stomach disappeared! I got so comfortable with how you approach me and talk to me. I was thinking "Oh this guy is not bad" HAHAHA. Eventhough it was just a few hour date i really love it. And i didn't know you were so "gentleman". And what surprise me more when you wanted to take a selfie with me! Why you so cute one? Alahai! :')

Our first argument was the day i asked you who am i to you. Remember? At that point of time i was still contacting with some of my ex date and some guys. You wasn't happy. And i remembered clearly you said "I don't contact my ex nor my ex date" Do you know upon hearing that i felt so bad and quickly deleted each and everyone number? LOL. Like literally deleted them all from my life. You remembered that one night. We were having a conversation about why am i so interested in you? Then we ended with argument. And that was the very first time i cried for you. My heart was so hurt. It's so painful than a slap on my face. When you actually said i was just " A gdfren that you love and care for". I literally broke down. My heart beat so fast. I could feel the break on it. Maybe because at that point of time i already have high expectation. I was hoping for something. 

But you quickly amend thing. You ended up saying "Let's just be like some other couples". The heart was still hurt but i told myself it's alright maybe you have your own reason why. Thing keeps going. Our "relationship" were all well. Till you became so busy with F1 event. But you still makes time for me. Oh have i ever tell you what do i actually mean by you treating me so well? If no, let me tell you now. Whenever we met you would forever ensure i had so much fun. You ensure we spend the day together. You ensure i am happy at the end of every date. You do things nobody else would. And you have never throw any vulgar words to me. You speak so nicely. Sometimes it's just me. You have never "Kau and aku" with me. NEVER. You accepted me the way i am. You have never ever look down on me. Or even bring me down. Now you tell me how can i not fall for you this deep? Where can i find someone like you? You have always make the effort to make things work. With your messages, voice notes and call (sometimes). Just read back the conversation during the F1 event period. Hais. Too sweet la you! :')

You saw that? You actually apologies for not having time for me. ;') But now... where have all the gone to? Where have the sweet D gone to? Why suddenly it like only me making the effort? I even have to begged you for your time. Why D why? Have you lost interest in me? I know you're tired with work. You're stress with work but don't do this to me. Where's the promises you make? Those sweet promises? I just need you to be yourself. I don't want you to changed. It's just so sad seeing you like this. Every single night i go to sleep thinking what's gonna happen to us. Thinking if you still love me like you do or no. So depressing you know! urghh. I am not ready to lose you. I am not ready to give up on something i just started. It's even depressing when i have to save a "relationship" which doesn't even sure. Why? People around us see us as a normal couple. Normal sweet couple. When the actual facts is only you and me knows. Can you please stop changing and give me back my D? My abangmisai? The abangmisai who makes the effort to text me ask me about how's my day, ask me if i am alright, ask me to share things with him. And never fail to tell me how much he loves me.... :"( I miss you so badly. Words couldn't describe love.

You are the happiness i always dream of.

Till we meet again. Xoxo.